Saturday 4 October 2014

Just keep swimming.



I've had a pretty crap past few days to be honest, and I'm not one to talk about how I'm feeling but it's been pretty crap, upsetting, hard and draining.

Since starting Sixth Form I've been suffering with headaches and sickness every day and I have no clue why, Stacie had her third false alarm which I'm 50/50 about, I had a little wound from the Doctors and it didn't stop bleeding and I also had my check up at Great Ormond Street this week.

I wanted year 12 & 13 to be a fresh start for me; no day's off, doing well, having fun, actually being able to go in and not being sick. But it hasn't gone that way at all. I've had numerous days in bed, consisting of sleeping, crying and fidgeting, and some days being sent home from Sixth form and ending up in bed, with a hot water bottle and Fudgey. I'm finding it really hard at the moment, and life just doesn't want to go my way at the moment at all.

On to Stacie, my fellow 'sick buddy' as we like to call one another and 'Erika's blogging friend' as some of my friends call her. Yep I'm glad Stacie got to meet my friends who so kindly named her 'Erika's blogging friend'.

Stacie has patiently been waiting for her heart and lung transplant for nearly 2 and a half years. One half of me craps myself and thinks omg that could of been Stacie who died and half of me thinks but it could of been so good for her. I honestly don't know what I'd of done if it was her call but we'll soon find out hopefully. Other than that, Stacie is holding up well for everything she's been through these past few weeks and she is such an inspiration too myself and so many other people. I luff her ♡.

On Tuesday I went to the Doctors for a small procedure, where I had a local anesthetic and weirdly that was the easiest bit! I was told to leave it for a couple of days and that it would bleed a little bit. Now, because of the medication I'm on I expected it to bleed a little longer as my blood is much thinner than most people's, but I definitely did not expect to bleed as much as I did. It wasn't even that bad on Tuesday night but when I woke I was covered in blood. I went to A&E Wednesday as it was still bleeding at lunch time, I was there from 12:30 till 3:00 which was bloody ridiculous!! They glued the wound hole for me, bandaged me up and off I went to catch the 4:30 train to London ready for my check up Thursday. There was no sign of any blood, so I thought it had stopped, then while we (myself, Mum, Dan, Jools and Kate) were out for dinner it started bleeding again and off I went to A&E in London at UCH (University College Hospital) at 10:30 at night. How fabulous, not. Anyway, it got to 11:30 and I couldn't stand to wait any longer so we left as I had an early appointment for a scan in the morning and decided that my Doctors could take a look at it.

Thursday morning, myself, my Mum and Dan went to GOSH after staying in the Western House (accommodation across the street from GOSH), I had an MRI, Lung function test, 6 minute walk test, chest X-Ray, echo and the usual; height, weight, blood pressure and clinic appointment. When I went for my clinic appointment (where I get my results and speak to my consultant) they basically told me that my heart function is even better and that I do not, I repeat, DO NOT need a lung transplant for the time being. This is music to my ears because before I was having to think about whether I wanted to go on the list or not because I wasn't that well and my heart function wasn't as good.

So yeah, this has been what's happening these past couple of weeks, and I've finally had some good news which I'm ecstatic about. I've realized I need to start blogging more and that I should probably change my age to 16 on my blog, whoops!

Thank you for reading 
Erika X


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