What do people find at the bottom of the Rainbow if they are very lucky?

As some of you may know on the 1st of July me and my family hosted a Quiz night in aid of the Rainbow Trust. We'd never ever done anything like this before but surprisingly it went really well for our first!

The night was absolutely amazing, we were given tons of raffle prizes and we never expected to get that many at all, so thank you to all the companies and families and friends that gave us a raffle prize! We also played Irish Bingo at the end, as well as a 'Name the Bear'! We were very lucky to have my grandparents as quiz masters and we were very lucky with the turn out. It was absolutely incredible, the support we received was amazing; and I can't thank everyone enough that came for making it one brilliant night! Our whole family was touched by everyone that came and supported us and helped raise money for the Rainbow Trust.



We raised an astounding amount of money, £848.72 to be exact and we handed it over to the Rainbow Trust 2 weeks ago!

Thank you to everyone who came and made it an amazing night!

Love, Erika

The Build

Hi everyone, long time no speak! I hope you are all well. Life is a little bit crazy at the moment which is why there has been some serious lacking of posts but hopefully I can start to pick it back up again over the next few weeks!

I'm currently having an extension built on my house, oh em gee! It started on the 20th of June, and it's going to be an extension on the downstairs to extend the kitchen diner, as well as building a downstairs bedroom and bathroom for me because those stairs are starting to get the better of me now. We're currently boxing up our kitchen, dining room and living room and I'm preparing to leave to go to my Dad's tomorrow for about 3 weeks while they do the knock through and complete the build.

It's not been as stressful as I though it would be, and we're very lucky with our builders. They're all so lovely and we get on really well. Don't ask why but I really enjoy making them cups of tea haha, maybe it's therapeutic I don't know but never the less I enjoy it. We're always having a laugh and when it comes to the end of the day I don't actually want them to go home, and now I'm packing up for my Dad's I won't see them anymore which I'm a bit gutted about!

Apart from the build, not much has really happened! We hosted a quiz night last night in the aid of the Rainbow Trust which went really well and I had such an amazing night; so keep an eye out for a post on last night which will be coming later this week.

And then for the next few weeks I've got quite a few things going on which is exciting.

This week my Grandma and Grandad are finally moving down from Brighton and we get the keys on Monday, so most of this week will be helping them out with decor and moving in. But I'm also off to Bristol this week with some friends from work for a good old shopping spree, then at the weekend I'm going to a wildlife park as well as the usual which is meeting up with friends for a coffee and catch up; definitely one of my favourite things to do!

So a really full week coming but I can't wait! It also means that time will fly by because I can't wait for my birthday which is in 28 days!!!!!!!!!!!!! Flipping heck, it only feels like yesterday I was saying that it was 160 days! Oh how exciting.

Speak soon

Love, Erika

One Day

If you had one day to live, how would you spend it?

Many people say they would want to live it normally, as they would any other day. But if you knew that you only had today then would you really? I know I wouldn't.

I'd make a special effort to wake up at 8/9am so I really could make the most of my day. I'd ring absolutely everyone, all my close friends and family so I could spend it with them. And I think I'd like to get the train to Weston-Super-Mare.

A lot of my childhood memories are at Weston with my family; mainly my Mums side. I have so many fond memories of donkey rides, sea world, the pier and Ben building us sand sculpture cars. It's definitely one of my 'happy places'. I spent my 17th birthday there with my family last year, and to some of you that may sound far from exciting but I honestly had the best day. They have the most amazing milkshake shop just outside the centre which we always go to, and the pier is always a good shout.

Anyway, I would definitely go to Weston-Super-Mare and I would definitely grab a milkshake and I'd also go to the pier. Ahhhh so much fun. And I think I'd just get some chips and gravy, and eat on the sea front wall with everyone.

If I had one day to live that's how I would spend it, not too complicated, but spent with the most important people in my happy place.

As for having one day left to live, that won't be anytime soon and if it ever does come around, I'd like to think I'd be at a decent age, so I probably wouldn't be able to do all that in reality. So actually if I did have one day to live, I'd like to be at home, in bed surrounded by my family and friends, and theres nothing more I'd want! (Although a a pizza definitely wouldn't go a miss. (I hope that's the right term).

I believe that you should live every day as if it's your last. You leave behind the history of yesterday, and determine how you will use todays energy; because all you have is now, and you have to live for today and make it so beautiful that it's worth remembering. Today will never come again so make good use of it. You will only regret it if you don't.

Life is beautiful; count your blessings, not your problems.

Love, Erika

More Amelia's

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More Amelia's

Charities, what would we do without them? In all honesty, I never really payed much attention to charities before I got poorly and that sounds absolutely awful but I think most people have this perception; that charities don't do what they say they do and actually the money doesn't go where you're told it does..I was one of those people. 

When you're chucked into a situation that you weren't expecting you feel totally alone and you really don't understand until you're in it. Charities are one of the most incredible things to ever exist. They have the ability to help people that need it and provide support as well as hope. Unfortunately a lot of charities don't get the recognition they deserve and I've only had the pleasure of working with a few charities that really do deserve a lot of recognition; Rainbow Trust, Molly Olly's Wishes, The Family Fund and Make A Wish Foundation. I've written about my experiences and wishes with all of these charities on a previous blog post Make A Wish. 

I've currently been working on a project with the Rainbow Trust to get them more recognition by creating short films with other families. My support worker Amelia is absolutely incredible and before Amelia joined, I had a lady called Oonagh. Both incredible women. Unfortunately Oonagh left and Amelia took over, and I don't take to new people very well when it comes to my illness but Amelia honestly is just amazing and we just clicked. 

The thing with Amelia for me is that she's not a friend, she's not family, she cares, but in a different way so you're not afraid to tell her how you're feeling because the connection is different. When you speak with family and friends, you're worried. You're scared because you don't want them to be sad because of what you've spoken to them about and you don't want them to get hurt or be reminded that you are ill. You live with your family every single day, you see your friends every single week, you want yourself and them to be happy and to be honest all you want is to have a nice day so you don't really want to talk about. I really don't know if I'm explaining this very well at all, and I know what I'm trying to say but I just can't put it into words so I'm just praying you all read this and understand what I mean.

Without Amelia, I'm not really sure where I'd be. It's not just the emotional support, it's about having someone that's there and you're not afraid to let them in. Thanks to Amelia, I'm able to enjoy myself more because I have her to talk to. We laugh 90% of the time, we smile a lot, and we talk often, and that's the best way to be. She can't take my disease away, but she can be there for the bad days and the good days, to make everything a little easier and a lot more enjoyable. 

A lot of what I'm saying will probably be spoken about it the videos too, from not just me, others. There are so many families that Amelia supports. And I'm so glad that I could take part in this video as well as writing this post, to help raise awareness; because without the sponsors, we have no Amelia, and without Amelia we have no support.

Below is the link to one of our short films for Rainbow. Please feel free to check it out and pass the link on.

More Amelia's

Love, Erika

What matters is today..

Some of you may be new readers and some of you may be returning readers... either way, welcome!

I'm Erika and this is my blog, C'est La Vie. I've always loved writing and this is the place where I get to write and share things as well as being able to create awareness for PH. 

I've been writing my blog since July 2014, and my very first post was My Story,which went live on the 4th of July 2014. All though that was the start of 'Tinkerbellaaaaa', I then changed my blog name to 'C'est La Vie'. 

After a year of writing on C'est La Vie I decided to take a break and my last post was on the 1st of July 2015. Shortly after that post went live I actually made my blog private which took it off the internet completely and no one could access it. At this time, I had a lot going on, and all though my blog is to share my life through writing I only really share a small percentage which mainly focus' on my disease. It would be merely impossible to share absolutely everything and I always have tried my best to share as much as I can but there are some things I wish not to share and to keep private which I'm sure you can all understand. I was unable to write a post on what was going on and why my blog was coming offline, mainly because you wouldn't be able to access my blog to read it and also because I could barely string a sentence together, nothing made sense, and I tried so hard to write a Facebook status but I just couldn't, I would just sit there, staring at a blank screen trying to figure out what to write. In the end I wrote maybe a line on Facebook saying I would be taking a break and I'd be back soon... 

Well here I am, 9 months on...I'm back and I'm ready. 

People would ask me when I was gunna come back and honestly I was never sure if I ever was going to come back; but since working on a project with the Rainbow Trust, it's given me the confidence boost that I needed and it made me realise that a lot of what I write helps others whether they are in a similar situation or not, and if I'm able to help people through writing and being honest then I'm happy.

At the moment I can't actually share the project that myself, others and Rainbow Trust have been working on but I promise I can soon, honestly I can share it much sooner than you probably think. 

Also, since taking my blog down I've deleted Facebook, I did also come off Twitter and Snapchat for a long time but recently got them back. As for Facebook, well, I'm not sure about that at the moment. It will benefit my blog but it definitely doesn't benefit me at the moment. When I feel that the time is right for me to get Facebook back I will and I'll be sure to let you know but for the moment Facebook is a big NO.

Since taking my blog offline, I've had a lot of time and it's definitely time I needed. I don't regret taking it offline because it has benefited me in so many ways. I am so grateful for everyone that was there and supported me at the beginning of Tinkerbella as well as everyone that may be reading for the first time. It truly means the world!

Thank you so much for reading

Love, Erika

Reminiscing ☀

This weather is absolutely gorgeous don't you think? Well, it may be a little too hot at night but in the day, oh it's amazing. Having nice weather just puts me into a reallyyyyyyyyyyyy good mood and I love it. And it also makes me reminisce. Monday night me and my brother went on a walk with Fudge just to the local recreational park. When we got there we immediately started jumping on the trampoline which wasn't a very good idea but honestly it felt so good; even Fudge was on the trampoline. And then there was the swings, I remember when me and my friends would go to this same park when we were young and the swings would always be the first thing we went on. Swinging on the swing (LOL) didn't make me out of breath or feel funny which was really good, I felt like I was finally doing something that I used too do as a kid and enjoy it.  When I was younger I was quite an active child, I went out nearly  every day with my friends to the park, I played netball, I did horse riding and nearly every weekend I would go swimming. Till about year 8 when I really started to struggle most of it stopped and I just found myself doing less and less as time went on. PE became the hardest one of them all. When it came to the day of PE or Games as my school called it I would always ask my Mum for a letter; most days it would be a yes but sometimes she would say no and I would get so anxious and cry about the fact I had to do Games. Like most parents they just assumed it's because I was lazy and unfit but then it got worse. I ended up writing my own notes to get out of Games because I knew I just wouldn't be able to do it and I didn't want to be humiliated in front of everyone because I couldn't keep up and felt funny.  I remember when me and my Dad and Jackie went to the Lake District camping (before I got sick), and I was so excited for it but when we arrived I realized what was to come. LOTS AND LOTS OF UPHILL WALKING. It was a good holiday and it was a bad holiday; for the pure fact every single bludy day we were walking up hills and in the valleys. Yeah I didn't enjoy that bit at all. Sometimes me and Jackie speak about it, and just laugh because Jackie would stay behind with me as Dad walked on further and I'd complain about being tired or out of breath and Jackie would quite simply tell me to stop complaining and get on with it.

 I don't know why we find it so funny looking back, but we do and honestly laughter is the greatest medicine. It's just days like Monday when I do something that I used to do as a child that I haven't done in a long time where it kind of hits me how much everything has changed. I guess you don't really realize what you have until it's gone. Of course there were days when I was young that I would complain about going out and now I wish that I could just go back and to do it. Even stupid little things like going up the stairs, that shouldn't be hard work, that should be easy, something that every one should be able to do without being in pain. But it's not, it's one the hardest things I and many others do daily. I can't remember the last time I walked up the stairs without being breathless and in pain. Or the last time I went out and didn't have to go home early or didn't cry about the fact I was in so much pain.
 I miss a lot of things and I do have the odd day or sometimes the odd week where I just think 'shit'. But I wouldn't change it, well actually I would change one thing and that would be that there's a cure, but apart from that I don't think I would change anything. It's made me appreciate life a little bit more than your average teenager I think, and before I do anything I say to myself "If I don't do this, I'll regret it and I need to have no regrets with the time I've got". It is difficult being different but as time goes on I learn to accept it more, and yeah it does make me sad that I can't do half of what I used to do but it's made me who I am and it's a part of me, I can't get rid of it so all I can do is try my best to be happy with it and accept it; and with that comes change.
Love, Erika

2nd Hammersmith Clinic

Sunday 14th June 2015
Okay so for about a month I've been trying to budge this terrible cold somebody kindly gave me, last week it finally went completely and I've never been so happy!! Usually I can just deal with colds as I'm used to getting them regularly but I wouldn't class this as your every day cold. I couldn't hear properly, I couldn't sleep, I had the most awful throat and I could barely speak because every time I tried too speak I would end up having a coughing fit, it wasn't fun at all. I ended up having 2 different course of antibiotics; the first lot didn't touch it and I actually ended up getting worse and the second lot made it get worse but I new it was getting better as I could start too hear again (the second lot definitely did the 'it will get worse before it get's better' type of thing). I can tell you now, I will never take my hearing for granted again!!  (This was written on the 14th of June but as you can probably tell I never got round to finishing it, so I've inserted it here because it's relevant to the whole blog post today being 'general life update', however I did recover really well on the fourth week of having it and hopefully I won't be seeing a cold for a while).

Tuesday 30th June 2015

Today I had my 2nd Clinic appointment at Hammersmith and it was very interesting too say the least.

At Hammersmith they do everything back to front compared too Great Ormond Street. At Great Ormond Street the same thing would happen EVERY time; echo, ECG, 6 minute walk test, MRI or CT, and an exercise test every 6 months to a year and then after the tests your Doctors would review the results from the tests briefly. I would then have my consultation and leave with some sort of result and some information on how well I'm doing or on any deterioration they can see.

At Hammersmith there are two options with how you would like your outpatient's appointment too go. 1) have your consultation FIRST and then do the tests after which involves a lot of sitting and waiting around in waiting rooms or 2) go into the day care ward with tests first and then a consultation with the PH team

On my first appointment we had no idea about the 'day care' so we had the consultation first and then Echo and a 6 minute walk test and then that was it. Honestly it sounds easy but it's really not, it's emotionally and physically draining and we were up at 5am and didn't get back till 5/6pm with patient transport. I did write a post on my first trip which you can read here >First Hammersmith Appointment< but honestly there wasn't much to tell you so you've probably forgotten so I thought I'd recap it a little in this post. But at my very last GOSH clinic we were told they could see a little bit of deterioration. As  I had been transferred to adult care it's basically like starting ALL over again and as the consultation was first we got no information or results at all.

Today was so much better than my last appointment, everything was just so so so much easier and better. One thing that does help with Hammersmith is that they seem to be on time more than GOSH were with tests and actually book appointments where as GOSH would just send you to the particular place and you'd have to wait and wait until a space freed up.

Anyway so we got the 09:11am train too London Paddington and from there we got a taxi too Hammersmith. I'm not sure if I've mentioned this previously but the hospital is directly next too Wormwood Scrubs prison for men which puts me on edge but what can I do haha. Let's just call it a 'fun fact'. When we arrived we went straight to a ward for Kidney patients but the PH team in Hammersmith have a few beds there.

As soon as I sat down there was this lovely lady who spoke to me about taking part in a research study of people with PH. This involves looking at my blood and seeing if theirs any mutations or extra things that shouldn't be there which then all goes towards a case study to try and find out new information to further Doctors and Scientists and our knowledge on PH. And to hopefully find some new treatments and medications to cure or too slow the disease down. There was a lot of paperwork but I gave my consent and I'm so glad I did, well I was until she said she needed blood from me TODAY. I hate needles and cannulas especially, I have my bloods done monthly and it's only until recently I've stopped using the magic cream that numbs your skin. I let her do it, and it was so painful and it wasn't your average 30 second blood test, it was minutes which felt like hours but still that's besides the point. IT TOOK FOREVER.

After she had taken my blood I got changed into gym type clothes ready for the exercise test. If you've EVER had to do one you know exactly how I felt and how hard it is. But for those who don't you're bludy lucky but I'll explain. The exercise test involves sitting on a exercise bike (stationery bike) and basically peddle yourself, starting from going downhill, to biking on a flat surface, to going uphill by them increasing the incline. But really it's not that simple; you're covered in wires. So you have the ECG wires on you with those horrible gunky stickers, an oxygen sensor on my right hand middle finger, a mask on my face covering my nose and mouth and obviously Martin hanging at the side but that's nothing new. I'm not going to lie, it was really hard. I haven't done one in a while but I new what to expect but it still was really hard. I have no idea how long it took, I just kind of started, did it and then stopped. Gradually my legs started to give up, my hands were shaking and I was breathing too fast for me too even catch my breath so that's when I knew I had to stop or I probably would've collapsed. Lol, fun. I rested on all the machines for a few minutes, then came off the bike and had 5 minutes too myself. The two people taking my test were soooooooooo lovely and actually told me that I put so much effort in and too them the graph looks good but they don't know figures which I was super pleased about.  After the exercise test we went for an MRI which is the really long machine, NOT the one that looks like a donut (that's a CT scan). I was told too get into a gown and too wait for them to come back. When they did they told me they needed to give me a cannula and my face dropped and I just burst into tears, honestly out of everything cannulas and needles are the worst for me. Anyway, we had a conversation about it and during that I bought up my pump Martin and asked them if they had everything set up for me to go in. My CADD Legacy pump is not compatible with an MRI machine because it has magnetic components, so at GOSH when I had an MRI they would make up my Epo like I do in the evening and put it into a MRI compatible pump which in this case is a huge great big syringe driver put with an extra long line, it's huge but it works. I told the man this and I have never seen anyone so confused in my life, he told me he was going to get somebody else too see if they knew and they didn't so she said she'd get the department manager. Well he came and he was none the wiser. He had no idea what I was going on about just like the others and told me that they don't have a pump compatible for the MRI machine, just great. HOW DOES A HOSPITAL WHO IS SUPPOSED TO CARE FOR YOU NOT HAVE THE RIGHT MATERIALS TO DO SO. I just can't believe they didn't know and I'm more shocked that my consultant didn't know I couldn't go in with it!! I was so discouraged, I honestly couldn't believe my ears. But to be honest I was quite happy that it worked out this way because it meant I didn't have to have the MRI which means no cannula and no contrast dye (the contrast dye goes into the blood via a cannula in a vein which helps highlight certain parts of my heart and lungs too produce clearer images). Not much really happened after that, I didn't do as many of the tests as I expected because they alternate what I have done every time I go up. I had a consultation where we discussed a few things, treatment wise and the now. I don't really have any results because my consultant kindly told me that actually regardless of whether I'm getting sicker or better I'm still on all the treatment they can offer me so what's the point in worrying about figures when I'm doing all I can. But apart from that, we left at around 14:30pm and was home by 16:15pm. It was one of the most enjoyable outpatient clinic's I've ever gone too, it sounds ridiculous but I was in such a good mood considering everything I had too do. I think the weather has something to do with it, and maybe the fact I found a load of old tunes on my iPod so I listened too those pretty much all day! My next clinic is in Bristol so less travelling, a shorter day and much closer. Brilliant. Oh by the way, I've set up a Facebook page for my blog, I'll link it below so if you would like to follow me you can which will make sure you're up to date always with blog posts and what I'm doing, as some times writing about your life can get a bit much. I'm really sorry if there are any typos, I've done my best on such little sleep and a long day, but if there's anything that reads really bad feel free to let me know! Thank you for reading and speak soon guys!
Love, Erika
Facebook Page - https://www.facebook.com/erikacestlavie?ref=hl

Inspiration ♡

So recently I've been a bit distant on the whole social media front, mainly Blogger and Facebook and it's really hard to explain why but I'll try my best. 
So a few weeks ago, my very good friend (and ex PH sufferer, ooooo there is so much joy when I say that yay) Stacie Pridden who I think I've mentioned in a previous post a while back, got her call. Now 'the call' or 'her call' if you're not in the transplant world means that they've found a match for organs. And in this case they found a match for Stacie's organs (her heart and lungs). Stacie has been on the transplant list for 3 years and she's also had her fair share of false alarms so everyone had their toes and fingers crossed and were praying that this would be it for Stacie, that she would finally get her transplant. 
And she did, SHE GOT HER FRIGGING TRANSPLANT GUYS. AND SHE WAS OUT OF HOSPITAL QUICKER THAN YOU CAN SAY 1 2 3 AND NOW SHE'S AT HOME AND RECOVERING AND SHE CAN WALK AND GET UP THE STAIRS WITHOUT STRUGGLING TO BREATH AND AND AND SHE DOESN'T HAVE TO WEAR AN OXYGEN TUBE ANYMORE AND WOW.
It's absolutely incredible, the day she got the call I cried, with happiness but also because I was scared. Honestly the first thing I said was "Shit, I spoke to her half an hour ago, what if I don't get too speak too her again because it's such a delicate operation and what if something goes wrong". Goodness knows how her family were feeling, I was an absolute mess. I was genuinely scared for Stacie when I saw that note on Facebook from Candice and it wasn't even me!!!
Unless you've had a transplant or have been asked to consider a transplant you don't know actually know as much as you think, and I must say, sometimes I meet people and I tell them about transplant and they say "Oh well if you were my daughter you wouldn't have a choice". And that's because it's portrayed to be a simple thing having your organ's replaced, people see it as a quick fix sometimes and don't actually know what happens after. They think 'Oh as soon as you've had your transplant you can do all these amazing things that you couldn't do before'. Yeah part of that is true but what people don't know is that you have too teach yourself how too breath again, how too cough and you've got strict medication rules to stop rejection. For the first month after being home you have to have weekly visits too the hospital; there is so much more to having a transplant of this kind.
I was worried for the operation and for all the recovery and steps that happened after. But she proved me wrong that I had nothing to worry about, the women got her chest drains taken out with NO pain relief for goodness sake!!! And now less than a month after transplant she's home and going on walks and she's already getting ready too go to Wimbledon. There is nothing stopping her at all and it's absolutely inspiring and I'm so lucky too know this incredible lady. I cannot thank the donor and their family enough for quite frankly saving one of my best friends and for giving her a second chance at life and allowing her too inspire so many people, including me. 
Transplant is something that I've been asked too consider, and I've had a lung transplant assessment about a 2 years ago now so that they could get all the figures and facts in case I want to be put on the list. I don't. But something happened when Stacie had her transplant, it made me feel different and funny. I don't know how too explain the funny feeling, so you either get it or you don't and if you don't that's okay, you're really not missing out on much. Anyway it hasn't made me go GET ME ON THE LIST NOW I WANNA DO IT. Because it certainly hasn't done that. Lots of things creep me out and scare me with having a transplant and some things absolutely petrify me because I'm not very good with pain at all. Obviously there are so many benefits to me having a transplant but one thing that really get's me is that, there's no guarantee that your body will accept the new organs (in my case lungs) and it could be rejected straight away, which means I wouldn't have long too live (days or weeks) before I passed away because of it when I could of had a few more months without it.   However it has got me thinking about the possibilities, the negatives and positives. The things I could potentially do after I've made a full recovery and the places I could see. But there is a lot to think about but maybe this is a start and this is all down to Stacie and her amazing donor and donor family. And I honestly can't thank Stacie enough for being who she is and for being such a huge inspiration too me and the donor and their family for giving her the chance to continue being the amazing person she is and for giving her a second chance at life. 
Bring on the bucket list Stace. 

As always, thank you for reading 

Love, Erika

Bored bored bored

Hey guys, guess what? I'm bored.

So about a week and a half ago I came down with the most terrible sore throat, it was like razor blades in my throat and I thought I had tonsillitis again. Right now I actually wish I had tonsillitis, instead I've accumulated this horrible dry mucus cough (gross) that went too my chest pretty quickly and has resulted in endless sleepless night and being house bound. Oh and don't forget the blocked nose which doesn't help as I can't breath well enough already!

Yesterday, Mum managed to get me an emergency doctors appointment, which turn out to be the biggest pile of crap ever. We ended up discussing my disease for the majority of the appointment because they don't like too give you the same Doctor, and then when it came down to discussing this horrible cold, I was told that it will "soon go". Great advice, he clearly wasn't there for the 15 minute conversation we just had about my disease, and that it's very risky for me to have a cold because it can cause all sorts of problems. Mum then had to remind the doctor that because of the treatment I'm on, I can't take Beechams Cold and Flu capsules (and other medications like Ibruprofen, Nurofen etc) as they interact with my drugs and can cause heart problems. 

Anyway, they finally prescribed me some Antibiotics which I was told to take only if I get worse. Yeah, he clearly wasn't there for the whole entire conversation about my disease, where Mum also specifically highlighted the fact that I'm struggling already and if it gets worse I could end up in hospital.

Today is my first day on the antibiotics so hopefully I will start too feel a little better by tomorrow! At the moment I'm house bound and I'm trying my hardest to rest as much as I can. It's really weird actually because before I started work and my apprenticeship I was off a lot of the time at school and sixth form, and I don't even know how I managed it, especially when I was off for those four weeks.... I'm so so so bored!! 

I can't wait too feel better, I've completely forgotten what it feels like to not have a blocked up nose and to have a decent nights sleep. 

As always, thanks for reading!

Love, Erika

Out with the old and in with the new..

Hi guys, I bet you're all really impressed that I haven't waited weeks or months too write my next blog post!! Anyway, in my previous post I said that things were going to be changing and as you've probably all noticed by now the layout has completely changed and so has my theme. I've ditched the pink because I wanted a more classy look for my blog and I ditched the 'Tinkebellaaaaa' name. (I am not in any way saying that some one with a pink blog is not classy, all I'm saying is that as my knowledge of blogging has expanded I've noticed a few things and this style definitely fits better for me and my blog, in my own personal opinion my blog now seems seems more classy than the bright pink). STOP BABBLING ERIKA AND JUST GET ON WITH IT. Anyway, at the time the pink and the name 'Tinkerbellaaaaa' worked for me because I had just started out with blogging and had pretty much no idea what I was doing, but as I've grown up and my blogging has expanded I have actually ended up not liking the name 'Tinkerbellaaaaa', I still frigging love Tinkerbell though. Sooooooo to replace it I've named my blog C'est La Vie which is a French phrase for, 'That's Life'. Now this blog is mainly focused on my life living with PH so in my personal opinion it fits better for me and this blog, because this is MY life and that's how it's supposed too be; my disease is unavoidable and that's just life.
In my last post I also said that I've been doing a lot of research too do with blogging; something that popped up while I was doing research was having a signature at the end of all your posts. Now it wont work on previous posts but it will work on posts from the day I set it up which was today, now I've done it, I'm not quite sure on it, what does everyone else think? I think the writing is too big compared too the rest of my blog but I've tried too change it and I can't. What's everyone's opinions?   Thanks for reading guys and I can't wait too hear some of your opinions on my signature.
Love, Erika

Goodbye Winter.

Owhhhh I hate winter and I'm so glad it's finally going! I've had a stinking cold for about 3 weeks now and it's absolutely draining me. All I do at the moment is go to work and sleep. Oh and I've been going to a few hospital appointments too so you can say I haven't had an exciting time of it lately.

It's been so up and down, so much has happened and it definitely hasn't been a normal few weeks recently.

Two weeks ago I had my last ever GOSH appointment and last week I had my first appointment at Queen Charlotte's and Chelsea Hospital (QCCH), and my monthly bloods at GWH. ITS SOOOOOOOOOO DRAINING TO SAY THE LEAST. I'm glad it's all over now though because now I can just get on with life with no interruptions for at least 6 weeks (which has now changed to 3 weeks of no interruptions with lots of phone calls and stress because I'm petrified), pretty sad too look forward to having no hospital appointments I know but they are very draining and it's nice to have a break for WEEKS instead of a few days or a week. 

But really it's not all over as I'm already having problems with Hammersmith and Queen Charlottes and Chelsea Hospital, which isn't making my transfer easier and I haven't even met the Hammersmith PH team and I already hate them for all the drama and stress they've managed to cause already. It's actually really upsetting because I feel like I've been chucked in the deep end, and I was told I would be introduced to the team over the phone and I would be told about the clinic appointments and what would happen, but I haven't had that conversation, and they've gone and booked me in at Hammersmith in 3 weeks time for a PH appointment at and I have no idea what to expect? I'm so scared and as well of all of this I feel like I have no one to turn too about it as no one understands and most people think it's so easy, I tell you now it's really not.

Anyway, enough of the boring, crappy stuff. On to the more exciting 'stuff' (there's not much).

KATIE GAVE BIRTH TO SAMSON THE CUTEST LITTLE BOY EVER AND HE'S SO DINKY AND CUTE AND AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Samson was born on the 12th February, and was only 52cm long/tall, I'm not sure how long/tall he is now but he is still so dinky. I haven't met Samson yet but from all the pictures I've seen he is an absolute cutie, and Jools and Katie are the most amazing, perfect parents ever. I've appointed myself as Auntie Erika because he is just the cutest amazing little boy ever.

Thank you for reading and I have no clue when I'm going to write another post so don't hold your breath!

Love, Erika

I'm still absolutely petrified of posting this but here goes.

I'm back to blogging, well sort of? Lets just see how it goes.

This post wasn't actually going to be about 2015 so far, but because it's been so awful, I haven't done anything exciting that is worth writing about. So January 2015 it is.

2015 is already not my year at all, January has been absolutely terrible and honestly I can't even begin to describe how I've been feeling and whats gone on. Let's just hope February is better but to be honest, I don't really have high hopes. I've had a really bad start to 2015 and nothing seems to be going right at all.

• I've been feeling rather up and down recently, good days and bad days. Mostly bad at the moment and I have a few ideas why. 'Friends', my accidental overdose, my apprenticeship, my last appointment at GOS, moving to Hammersmith and Fudge. I've been trying to take my mind off of everything by seeing friends and family, going out, listening to music (preferably Jessie J or S Club 7:The greatest hits, always a few good motivational songs between them) and doing coloring (it's actually a very good stress re-leaver and it makes you relax, well it does for me anyway).

• No one knows about this except family as I didn't want to go shouting about it at the time. At the beginning of the year, I had an accidental overdose in medical terms. I had two ambulances out to me and quite a few people in my house. Basically, I had a migraine and wanted relief for it, so I had to take 1 morphine based tablet. Well instead I had mistaken morphine for paracetamol (where I would usually take 2), and I took 2 instead of 1. PLEASE DO NOT DO THIS. I have never had an experience like it, nor do I want to experience it again. One minute I was fine, the next minute I couldn't see, my pupils were constricted, my breathing was slowing and it felt as if someone was sat on my chest, I was boiling hot and sweating like I was in Africa and Mum had to fan me, I felt sick, I was shaking, and I couldn't feel my body. I literally felt like there was nothing to me, all I could feel was my head. I was violently sick multiple times and my headache was still there. Because I was unable to breath properly (well my properly anyway, which is pretty heavy and slow anyway) I was terrified to go to sleep as I didn't want to stop breathing and die. Because of my disease and the fact I felt so terrible, Mum and myself decided it was best to call 111. I was pleading for an ambulance and I never ever want to go to hospital all call an ambulance unless it's life and death, and I felt like this was. 111 sent an ambulance and a car, they did a few general checks on me: blood pressure, bloods, temperature and they basically said I'd get over it and it wouldn't kill me unless I took more. They also said that a heroin addict would take a whole packet of those tablets, which is 32 just to get their fix. I had a really rough few days after that, but I was so happy that I was ok and didn't need to go to hospital. By the time they actually got to my house, I was feeling better, but because of my breathing me and my Mum pooped ourselves and wanted to double check I'd be ok, as you can understand in my condition, not being able to breath is quite serious. Anyway, I'm fine now, I definitely won't be making that mistake again and I'm here to tell the tale. I know some of you will be like "Why did she put that on her blog?", well I'm a very honest person and I wouldn't feel right blogging about how rubbish January has been and missing out the most life changing, crappiest thing of January. It just doesn't sit with me right and if you don't agree with me putting it on here, then fair enough, everyone has their own opinion, but honestly just do one, I shall write what I want.

• If you have me on Facebook, you would of seen that recently I've been feeling like I can't count on everyone and that all everyone does is let me down. Without offending anyone, well that's if they even notice this applies to them, I've lost quite a few friends. Close friends as well. Ever since I've started this apprenticeship nobody has bothered and all the people I thought I had have just disappeared. Yeah I understand people move on, get new friends, carry on with their life blah blah, but when you thought you were best friends or good enough friends with someone to keep in touch with and then they don't it kind of hurts a lot and makes me feel poopy, as it probably does with other people that this happens to.

• My apprenticeship has been taking absolutely ages to get to grips with, but hopefully by the end of February I will be in the swing of it and flying through it. At the moment it's very stressful as I should've started the work last November but unfortunately it got delayed and delayed and I only started it on the 12th of January; so as you can imagine I have loads to catch up on and complete by November 2015, no pressure.

• As for my last appointment at GOSH and moving to Hammersmith; I think I've spoken about this before, but it's coming around pretty quick and I'm quite anxious. These people who have been with me since day one of my diagnosis aren't going to be there anymore and I'm going to have a different support network which makes me really anxious. I hate change, especially this type of change. I'm quite happy and comfortable with my Doctors, Consultants, Nurses and Ward Staff and I don't exactly want it to change, but unfortunately change happens and I can't stop it, so I guess on wards and upwards?

• Fudge isn't exactly being a good puppy at the moment and when I'm having a bad day it doesn't exactly go down well with me, I literally want to chuck him out the window. Obviously I don't do that and I wouldn't ever do such a thing, he's still alive and being a pain but sometimes he drives me up the wall. When he barks, he doesn't 'woof' he barks and it won't be quiet and innocent, it's a full on loud bark. It makes us poop ourselves when he barks unexpectedly and everyone that hears fudge outside probably thinks we own a great big aggressive dog when in fact, Fudge is just a Yorkshire Terrier with short legs, about 70cm in height and a very loving personality with a good old loud bark. Anyway, I still love him very much and I would be lost without him if I didn't hear him in the morning barking at the school run, or when someones outside in the alley, or when the postman comes, or when he hears me coming home through the front gate and welcomes me; it's comforting to know he's there, trying to protect us regardless of his size and to hear him welcome me, us home. 

• Health wise, I've been ok. I've had the odd hiccup and have acquired another cold but hopefully it will pass soon. I have been sleeping a lot more recently and getting much more tired than I usually would but I think it may be down to the emotional roller-coaster I've been on, the stress I've been having and everything else as well. If you put it all together it is just draining, emotionally and physically. Oh and regarding my meds (Epoprostenol via hickman line), I've been getting on really well. I haven't done them every day, a few times a week but I'm certainly getting there and my confidence is growing each day with it. I'm so proud of myself and so thankful that my parent's have taken the time to teach me and picked up the pieces when I've thrown a paddy because it's stressed me out. 

Writing about the morphine was actually really hard for me, and I did post this last night but I completely regretted it and deleted it. But since then I've thought about it and here I am posting it again. I decided to re post it and keep that particular paragraph in because since speaking to a couple of people, they told me it was a good idea to include it as it shows people the real world and that not everything works out. Things like that do happen in life, regardless of who you are, where you come from, if you have a disability or not etc etc and I genuinely don't think we hear enough of these common mistakes to make ourselves aware, so don't take this as a "I want your sympathy" because I don't. I just want you, and other people to be aware of how easy it is to make that type of mistake and how fatal and scary it can be.

As for this post, it's a very honest and open post. My January has honestly been awful and hopefully it can only get better. Thank you to a lot of my family and friends (you know who you are) for your continued support, motivational talks, picking me up when I'm down in the dumps and ready to give up with everything, and for just generally being amazing towards me. Always cheering me up and reminding me why I'm still here fighting. You're all always there when I need you and even when I don't you're still there, reminding me of why I get up in the morning, and get dressed and go to work and continue this apprenticeship even when I could so easily spend the rest of my life in bed. I honestly couldn't get through half of what I do without any of you lot, and I'm so blessed to have you all. And I'm actually really thankful that you make me go out and spend the day with you because you know exactly what I'd be doing if I wasn't out with you (staying in bed) and you know deep down I'd rather go out than waste my time. Time is precious to me and you all seem to know it and don't let my stubbornness stop me. I honestly couldn't ask for better people to spend my life with and you know who you are, I love each and every one of you so much and I hope you never ever forget that.

Thank you for taking the time to read this blog post and I'm sorry it's so long.
Credits to Stacie for the confidence boost and the guidance.

Love, Erika

By the way Jessie J was amazing and me and Megan had the time of our lives. She's definitely worth going to see and I can't wait until she does another tour. HINT HINT. Mum? Dad?

Stacie's blog ♡ - Life Is Worth The Fight

Martin

Hi everyone, I hope you all had a lovely Christmas and New Years, I know I did thanks to all my family and friends.

Anyway this isn't going to be a long post at all, just nice and brief. As some of you know as you're friends with me on facebook my New Years resolution was to learn how to do my meds as there's quite a lot to be done and it's about time I learnt. It also means I have more freedom so since the 2 of January I have been doing my meds with mums guidance and I'm so proud. 

Today marks my 2 year anniversary with Martin (my pump). God knows why I named him Martin but I did and that's that. This is Martin 

Martin has saved my life, he might not of worked at the beginning but 6-7 months ago he decided he was going to start kicking some ass. I'm so glad I got Martin when I did, it was definitely the right time when I got him and he's changed my life in so many ways. (If someone looks over your shoulder while you're reading this they are going to think that I have a really sweet boyfriend, Martin is NOT my boyfriend, he is my pump that is connected to my Hickman line feeding me medication 24/7. Sorry for the disappointment.) Martin has changed my life, mostly good but some bad. And he's also changed my family's life. Certain things I can't do do effect my family but we all march on and keep going and always find alternatives. Also, because my meds have to be done every 24 hours, it limits where I can go, and I always have to have my parents with me as they're the only ones who can do it, but I assure you all that is going to change very very soon. But focusing on the good points, he's made me better these past 6-7 months, my health has improved and I've never had an internal infection with Martin which is great.

You're all probably thinking I'm a nutter for naming my pump, but it just makes things a little easier when dealing with being ill and having a pump connected to you 24/7.

Thank you so so much for reading! Hope you're all well and have had a brilliant start to 2015.

Love, Erika

Merry Christmas Everyone ☃

Today is the day we've all been waiting for!! Everyone loves Christmas and not many people grow out of it which I think is great.

Anyway it's CHRISTMAS EVERYONE. One of my favorite times of year. This isn't exactly going to be a long post because it's Christmas day and I'm sure you're all more interested in your presents than reading this so I won't keep you for long.

I want to wish all you lovely people out there a happy Christmas and I hope you enjoy this wonderful day. A huge merry Christmas to all my wonderful family and friends who have stood by my side this year and supported me. I would not have gotten through this year without you all here and I honestly can't wait for next year. One of the reasons today is so special for me and so many other ill people is that we made another Christmas, were still here spending time with our loved ones and there's nothing I or anyone else loves more. The thought that I made it buzzes through my ears and the fact I'm so lucky to be enjoying another Christmas!

Have a lovely lovely Christmas and I hope you get all the things you asked for and enjoy these lovely couple of days with your family and friends. 

All my love

Love, Erika

General Life and Health

I haven't blogged since the 9th of December, so much for doing them regularly!

If you're friends with me on Facebook or follow me on Instagram you'll know that I've been quite sick the past 2 weeks, I had a infection, then a cold then last Sunday I managed to bag myself the dreaded sickness bug that is going around at the moment. It hasn't exactly been the best two weeks and I've only managed 2 days at work which is crap, but it means I should be better for Christmas which is a bonus but then again since Wednesday i think I've caught a cold or something AGAIN as my glands are up again and I have a sore throat. Oh I love this time of year when all the sickness is around!

I've had a really busy weekend for once, I saw my friends Devon and Georgie who I haven't seen in a long time and we had a lovely catch up, I got my nails done all ready for Christmas and I got my eyebrows done too because they were in serious need of a tidy up.

Christmas has come around so quick, I can't believe. I've done all my Christmas shopping and it's all wrapped and ready to go which is a bonus because shopping at last minute is too stressful for me and I definitely know my Mum finds it stressful too, so at least one of us is ready?

There's really not much to write about at all because I've spent the last 2 weeks in bed, so yeah. Exciting stuff!

Thank you for reading this rather short blog.

Love, Erika

Christmas ☃

I don't know about anyone else but I LOVE Christmas, it has to be my favorite time of year. I love the festivity and everyone's always happy at this time of year. Some present's have arrived and some haven't, but today I received a present I had ordered and when I opened it, it definitely did not look anything like it did online and now I'm rather confused on what to do with it. Why does that have to happen and I can't exactly keep it till Christmas because the return time will be up. Poo you online shopping. Apart from stupid things like that happening, buying Christmas presents and wrapping them is my favorite part and I struggle to not tell people what I have got them. I've done most of my shopping now and all that is left to do is wrap them and label them and wait for the 25th to give them their presents. LONG. One thing that pretty much poos on my Christmas parade EVERY single year without fail is advent calendars, I dislike milk chocolate on it's own to a very strong level, I can eat Malteasers, I can eat strawberries dipped in chocolate, I can eat chocolate with nuts in, anything else but chocolate on it's own. So this year, I got a Malteasers advent calendar so I could have MALTEASERS, YES MALTEASERS that I like very much, every day, for the next month. But when I opened the first door, it was plain old milk flipping chocolate. I was not impressed and I have not eaten a single chocolate from my calendar. Now, I don't know if it's just me but surely if you're gonna sell a MALTEASERS advent calendar, it's got to have MALTEASERS in it. But apparently not, and I have poopy milk chocolate that tastes awful (in my opinion).

I've been feeling pretty rough lately and my glands have been badly inflamed so I assumed I had tonsillitis. I managed to get a Doctors appointment yesterday and they told me i had a "mild infection" and it would soon go. They prescribed me antibiotics, but told me not to take them unless it got worse? Yes, a doctor told me, that i shouldn't take antibiotics now, I should wait for it to get worse. Um hello? No I don't think so, and I will be taking them today until it goes because I do not want to risk it getting worse and causing more problems when it could have been prevented in the first place. They also prescribed me the OxyNorm that I was told to take when I had a headache/migraine by GOSH which is a bonus so hopefully they will work but currently I'm on a small dose and if it doesn't work we can increase the dosage. 

Nothing much to blog about at all but I really fancied doing a blog so that's what happened really. As always, thank you for taking the time to read my blog even though I've probably talked a load of crap in this one especially.

Love, Erika

This whole 'blogging' regularly is definitely not my thing.

Not much has happened at all since I last blogged except work, having my first pay day which was pretty exciting, Bath and the hospital and the rest of my time has spent sleeping. Oh how fun.

Today I had my PH clinic which was at Bristol Children's Hospital this time. It was supposed to be my last appointment with GOSH as I now should be in the process of being transferred to Hammersmith because of my age, and that is where adult PH clinics are. Anyway, only me and Dad went today as it wasn't such a big appointment and when I found out it was my last I was absolutely gutted as Mum wasn't there and I knew she would want to be there. I managed to get them to let me have one last appointment with them in February. After my appointment in February I will never step foot in GOSH for a PH clinic again. It makes me so upset as they've been with me since day one, but life goes on and I can't stop it. But I definitely will miss all my consultants, doctors and nurses and it's a change that I have to accept and get used to. CAN I JUST PUT OUT THERE THAT I HATE CHANGE, 

Bristol appointments are never the same as GOSH as I don't do all the same tests because they don't have the equipment and it doesn't take as long due to fact I only do 2 tests instead of 5. My appointment was fine, everything is ok and there's no change since last time which is good. They also told me I could have my ears pierced now, finally, so I will definitely be going to get that done very soon. There isn't really much to tell at all but they did manage to answer a few questions we had about what other painkillers i could take as Ibuprofen and Paracetamol are crap and co-codamol makes me ill. (They told me I could have Oxymoron, so fingers crossed it will help with my headaches and pain when I get it). And when my sleep study will be done. I'm not going to go into detail about the sleep study just yet but it is an upcoming test I will be doing which will mean going into hospital overnight, hopefully locally. But when I've actually done the test or possibly before I will do a blog on it. At the end of my appointment I made my consultants, doctors and nurses take a selfie with me for safe keeping with my new selfie stick I recently purchased. What has my life come to? (Theres always one that has to mess up a photo i.e Dad and Avyette).

From right to left we have: Shahin who is my consultant from GOSH, myself, Avyette who is my nurse from GOSH, Dr Tulloh my doctor at Bristol and in the front my Dad.

Thank you for reading lovelies and just to let you know in, it's 20 days till Christmas!

Love, Erika

POOF

I haven't blogged in ages but I've been quite busy with my apprentice and I haven't exactly been healthy so I've had no energy at all to blog. So here is my really late blog but I am trying my hardest. I try to write little bits during the week so I don't have loads to write when it comes to actual finishing a blog.

Poof is my new favorite word. If you know me well you'll know that I go through stages of having favorite words and sayings for months on end, and these ones have been the most recent in the past few years; 'shitty shitty' excuse my language, fabulous, oh hunny, bubs and probably a few more that I can't remember but if you do, please feel free to tell me as I like being reminded of these things.

My apprentice that I started just over three weeks ago in business administration is going really well. There's not much to tell at the moment but I'm really enjoying myself and I think it was definitely the right decision. I do miss all the staff at Commonweal and my friends, especially my first aiders. But I honestly do think it was the right decision and I know that if I do ever want to go back, I can. But so far, so good. I have more energy now, and I'm not so drained after work. I also don't have the stress of exams and learning loads of new things, so I'm pretty healthy at the moment too. Minus my cold that I seemed to catch but it's gone now so fingers crossed I don't get one near Christmas time.

It's Christmas in 30 days and I can't wait to by presents for everyone and wrap them up. I haven't started any of my Christmas shopping but oh well there's loads of time. I love Christmas, Christmas songs, the atmosphere, the jolliness, I JUST LOVE IT.

I had some friends over on Saturday who I haven't seen in ages and it was so so lovely too just see everyone, have a catch up and have a good time together. We managed to have a laugh and a joke and it went so quickly. It was really nice to do something with my weekend instead of spending it sick or sleeping.

As for hospital, my next appointment is at the beginning of December, so not to close to Christmas thankfully. Not much to write about at the moment as nothing exciting is happening so this one is rather boring, however I will be doing 'blogmas' so I need to start preparing for those or I won't do anything!! Ooops.

Thank you for reading the most boringest blog ever.

Love, Erika

I want to live so badly so why is life not letting me?

Life has changed so much and it's nights like these I lay down and actually realise all the things that I miss. Life for most of us changes through the years and sometimes even months and weeks but I can't help but notice sometimes that I may have drawn the short straw at life.

I miss having nothing to worry about. I feel like within the past 3 years I've become an adult that I shouldn't have to be right now. For example, I barely stay at friends houses because its so much drama to sort out. And another is that I rarely ever am well enough or have the energy to go out, and when I get invited out most pals usually forget I can't actually do all the walking and the long days. 

I miss the days when I'd go round my best friend Chloe's house and stay for like 4/5 days straight in half term, when I was only supposed to be staying a day. Being stupid with her, running around, eating a months supply of candy in one night, waking up to scrambled egg on toast or cheese on toast, playing just dance like we hadn't a care in the world (and in one aspect we didn't, I didn't, not like I do now), having food fights, and doing one another's makeup. It's not like that no more, and however much I want it to be like that again, it won't be, ever again. Those days seem to have gone as quick as they came. 

In summer I went out with a bunch of friends and what I thought we went out to do, didn't happen and plans changed which meant I had to go home because I couldn't do the walking. This isn't a "Oh I wish my friends weren't so careless to forget" because they really aren't at all and I'm so glad they invited me out because even though I'm sick and not 'normal' they still included me. It's more of a, "I wish I didn't have to go home and could carry on like them all, I wish I was normal and not sick". Before, I could of easily stayed out with them, walked to Lydiard, got pizza and all the other stuff but now I can't do that, for a number of reasons and it's absolutely gutting some days. 

I just want to some days be able to get up and go, not plan things, go out and stay out for as long as possible and just be a teenager. But it's pretty much impossible and now I spend most of my days in bed, sleeping, and rolling about with achy bones. 

I didn't ask for this sickness in my life, and I don't want it in my life but I have to put up with it. It's never going to leave me, it's always going to be there and there's nothing I can do about it. I have such a desperation to live, to get better, and to live my life just how I want it and to do all these amazing things. I want this so bad, just to one day to be better, for a cure to be found, to know I'm not going to die at a young age. I want to live so badly and life just doesn't want to let me do that.

Love, Erika

2nd November means one thing...

ITS ONLY 53 SLEEPS AND 52 DAYS TILL CHRISTMAS.

I've been feeling rather groggy and un-motivated lately. I have no energy and I would loveeeeee to be a hedgehog so I could go and hibernate. I hope I've got that right, that hedgehog's hibernate? Ahhhhh the joys of getting an E in Science. Anyway, I've been feeling rather poopy this week and everything seems to be getting on top of me and rather too much.

Daniel's birthday was great and we had a few lovely meals with his family, he enjoyed all of his present's and I'm so glad I could be a part of his 18th. Some people will probably question why I'm so grateful of being able to be part of it, but I am, so so so grateful. I love birthdays, I love giving other people presents and watching them opening them. I love seeing people so happy and excited on their birthday. And particularly with Dan's birthday, was the fact that I could share such a special moment in most people's life, turning 18, with him. Also the fact that I may not make it to my 18th but I've still been there for his, and that fills me with so much joy. (Not that I might be dead for mine, that I was there for Dan's 18th, just in case anyone thinks otherwise.) I hope that makes sense. 

I've had a boring half term, and I haven't exactly done anything amazing. We did some baking on Monday, making gingerbread men and lemon drizzle fairy cakes. On Tuesday me and my brother spent the whole day in bed playing Mario Kart Wii. We had a laugh and just slobbed about all day. My Grandma has been down from Brighton since Wednesday and I always love seeing her and spending time with her when she's down. I don't get to see her often which is rubbish so when I do see her we always manage to have a laugh and do loads of things! When I say loads of things, I mainly mean shopping. 

I've spent this half term getting myself ready for the next few weeks that lay ahead of me. For once it's not actually anything to do with the hospital as I usual use that line for something major with the hospital. I have a few more things to sort out and then at some point next week there WILL be a blog post about 'My First Day'. But, my first day doing what? Hehe.

As always, thank you for taking the time to read my blog

Erika X